Day 37...Captin fussy pants

Feb 25

My goodness Martyn has been fussy today!

This is the first full day that he's just been cranky and fussy and nearly inconsolable during his awake times. I'm so glad Eli was off today to help me with him. I'm not frustrated to the point of tears or anything like that....but it's hard when he's fussy and I've done all the normal stuff that soothes him....feed him? check...change him? check...make sure he's warm? check...cuddle him? check....change of scenery? check...change of position? check....feed him again? check.

I mean the whole day went on like this. He's still a little congested and stuffy. It really only flares up when he's all fussy, most of the time, he can breath just fine. This morning was the only exception to his fussiness....we had some nice family wake up time, where after I got up and changed him and brought him back to bed, all three of us were awake and had some time to cuddle and talk to each other in the cozy bed, with the sun shining in the window.

We went on a little outing to do some errands this afternoon and Martyn slept the whole time....he was asleep pretty much from the moment I buckled the straps in the car seat....which was nice, Eli and I had been waiting for him to fall asleep all morning so we could have some much needed time with each other.

It's frustrating to no be able to comfort my son...even more so, I have no idea what his problem was. He would calm down, and then just be kind of whiny off and on for hours on end. He doesn't have a fever...I just don't get it.

He would be awake and alert and looking at things and interested in things, or engaged with either Eli or me, and then all of a sudden start crying/whining....and then get all worked up all over again.

Thankfully, Eli was here. A little while ago Martyn was just fussing fussing fussing in my lap. I had gone through all the calming stuff and had just given up for a minute and was rocking him and patting him gently, which helped a little...I leaned my head back on the recliner and just sighed. Eli was sitting at the computer and heard me, and turned around and said very gently to me, "want me to take a turn?" What a wonderful husband! I handed the baby over to him, and what do you know, he quieted down...for a little while. But that was better than nothing.

Right now, Martyn is sleeping on my chest....which as of late seems to be pretty much the only way to get him to sleep, or just calm....which often ends up with him sleeping.

*sigh*

I'm learning. I still love being a mama. It's still my joy to deal with these kinds of things with Martyn, and I'm so glad I have such a wonderful husband and partner in Eli...

I'm beat. This has been a rough day, though I feel like we got a lot accomplished. It was cold, and bright and sunny and beautiful though. It's been a hard, but good day.