Day 6...feeling the lag

Jan 25

Today is the last full day that Song and the kids will be here. Which I'm sad for, and glad for at the same time. I've really enjoyed having all of them. Song's company has just been awesome, and she's just done a wonderful job caring for all of us the last few days...I really needed the help, and just company too.

I'm tired, but still feeling great. Everyone seems pretty shocked when they see how well I'm doing. I don't know what to tell them, I guess I'm kind of shocked too...I still don't feel like I just had a baby. I mean I do, but I don't.

This morning, I really wanted a "fancy coffee" from my favorite bagel place up the street from our house. I decided to bribe Song with a cuddly, really cute sleeping baby boy, and the promise of a chai tea, if she would watch him for a few minutes so I could run up and get my fancy coffee....also I was about to run out of pads, so I needed to get some of those too. She was all smiles in agreement.

It felt really strange to leave the house for one thing, but really really strange to go alone...no baby belly, no baby, no husband, no company at all. Really strange, and kind of nice at the same time, though I didn't like the feeling of not having the baby with me. It felt like part of me was missing. I guess if you think about it, I've had Martyn always with me constantly for the last 9 months, it makes sense to feel like I was missing him, or part of myself for that matter....I don't know what the heck I'm going to do when I have to go back to work...

I have time to figure that out though, no need to dwell on it just yet.

Song cooked another totally awesome dinner for us tonight too, both Eli and I were just so thankful to have her here. We also got the chance, finally, to play the card game San Juan with her, (we had gotten her and Jon, but mostly her, the game for Christmas but hadn't sent it yet) which was really cool. I'm glad we finally were able to teach her how to play, and that she will be able to enjoy the game with Jon when she gets home.

I'm so glad she and the kids were able to come. I think it was great for all of them, and it was soo good for Eli and Martyn and me.

Thanks Song!