Day 30...supply and demand

Feb 18

Last night, I slept the best I have yet since I've had Martyn. Even though he was congested, Martyn slept very well too. I've learned the art, it seems, of getting the boob into Martyn's mouth with the light off....something I've been afraid to do, or too frustrated and sleepy in the middle of the night to try. For whatever reason, I was able to go the whole night last night with out turning the light one once, until after 6 this morning! Martyn got nursed, on both sides through out the night, which included rolling him over to my other side, twice, in the dark! I am siked....also, last night was the first night in a week that Eli has slept downstairs with Martyn and I (because he didn't have to work today) and I realized how much I missed him.

I know he sleeps better over all when he sleeps upstairs, because the baby wakes him up at night....and I'm glad for him to get as much sleep as possible, especially on work days, but I really miss him and I didn't realize it until last night.

I think that's part of the reason I slept so much better too. I had my bed heater back, ha!

So I've been looking on Craigslist the last few days for a breast pump because I needed one...bad. I officially decided last night that today was going to be the day I got myself a breast pump because when I got up to change Martyn in the middle of the night, I was so full that I was dripping, almost streaming, on both sides at the same time. Which is good, that means the supply is meeting the demand....the problem is the supply is greatly exceeding the demand and before I get to the point of nearly streaming...mama is hurtin'! I've started sleeping with two of the big cloth diapers under me at night, or I totally wake up in a puddle every night, from the engorged side that isn't currently being nursed by the boy....they're very absorbent, but cotton and don't make me all sweaty like the waterproof sheets do. To some that might be strange, but I was pretty proud of myself for coming up with that one.

I found a breast pump on craigslist for $10, so we went on a little excursion to get it today. Before hand, we decided to go to IKEA and pick up a few other things we needed. That was a nearly unsuccessful trip, to IKEA I mean. We only ended up getting a couple things on our list. I did get to test out my new moby wrap though, and I love it! That was also a craigslist find, and what a great find it was! Man, all the moby is, is a giant piece of solid, yet pliable fabric...but it is great for baby wearing. There are several different ways to use it, and the way I did it, where you make a little pouch in front for your baby to sit in, but still be pressed against you securely, was awesome. It was so comfortable, and sleek. The other baby carrier we have I think is really cool too, but Martyn is just a bit too small for it still. Also, it's more for outdoor activities, kind of too bulky for inside.

After IKEA, and picking up the breast pump, we decided it was time for lunch...Eli was getting crabby...maybe I was a bit too. Since we were over near our old neighborhood in South East Portland, we decided to go to Cha Cha Cha, one of our old favorite walk to restaurants when we lived in the apartment.

I had to nurse and change the baby in the car because they didn't have a very good bathroom...I knew this ahead of time. Both tasks were a bit tricky in the backseat...at least it was rainy all day and fogged the windows up nicely, so no one could see what was going on if they walked by, ha! It wasn't that bad though, and now I know I can do both of those on the road if need be. The diaper change was more difficult than the nursing.

I'm thinking the next craigslist item may be a humidifier....it gets pretty dry in our room at night anyway, but poor Martyn has caught my cold I think and he's pretty stuffy and congested. I feel bad for him because it's really annoying to be congested. He can breath, but he's boogery and snotty. This morning I was using the bulb syringe to clear his nose out, and like every kid I've ever seen one of those used on, he was all upset. He cried his first tears he was so upset...which I have to admit was super cute. I was comforting him and I said, "aw, you cried your first tears baby", and Eli who was in the kitchen came running in to the living room over to me with this really excited look on his face and just kind of stood there. I was like "what?" and he says "you said he did his first something...." haha! That was also pretty cute I thought. Eli is so excited to be Martyn's daddy. It's all so new to him, but I think he's doing great.

He's changing diapers pretty well, and learning how to comfort Martyn when he's upset, and mama is not readily available (like in the bathroom). It's good to see him in the evenings just cuddling with Martyn, it melts my heart actually.

I'm looking forward to more adventures and outings with my guys. For now though, I'm content to cuddle with the boy in the chair, and listen to daddy snore in the next room.