Day 34....surprise! you don't know everything

Feb 22

A little Patience and understanding has once again gone a long way. To my surprise and delight, Eli even brought up a scene from one of my favorite movies, depicting ways to present ideas to him....that was to my delight because in talking to my mother about my whole delima, I also mentioned the exact same scene...I love my husband.

We talked tonight. We didn't fight, we didn't argue....and we understood each other, for once. Not like we always fight or argue, or don't understand each other...but very often, it's like we're speaking two different languages, and there's a lot that gets lost in translation. I guess that's just a man woman thing.

Also tonight, Eli was holding Martyn and he was fine for a while but then just got fussy. I was cleaning up the kitchen after dinner, and didn't want to just come take the boy away....so I let Eli deal with it and see if he could figure it out. At one point he said to me "what do you think it is?" meaning, what's wrong, why is he crying? I thought about it, and decided I didn't know. I said I don't know, and then just sat back in my chair (this was after I had cleaned up the kitchen.) I had to kind of laugh because it occurred to me how many times I've thought I would always know how to take care of my son, or know why he was crying because I would be attentive.

Well, surprise surprise I don't know everything! Actually it feels good to admit that, and brings a smile to my face....how silly I can be sometimes...and stubborn! For once it's nice to be a little humble. It's good to take advice from people, or at least consider it...but especially from people who are wise counsel. I am fortunate enough to have several people whom I consider wise counsel. I sure can be an ass sometimes though, feeling like (and probably projecting) that I don't need their help, I don't want their suggestions...blah blah blah.

I've decided it's time to return to the land of humility. I once was familiar with it....Eli has not ever known me as a humble person....I'll not have my son growing up thinking his mother is a know it all jerk. Now that doesn't mean that I will have any less confidence in the things I say and believe....that sometimes comes across as pride...those are two different things. But when it comes to me feeling like I know everything about everything....well, that just has to stop.

So here's to learning life's lessons, and practicing humility for the sake of raising my son right.