Day 73...cranky pants, and not the boy

Apr 2

Serious cranky pants today....me, not the boy. I just haven't been feeling well today. My throat is sore, and I was feeling fidgety and restless for most of the day. Despite feeling cranky, I did get a lot of stuff done.

Got 4 loads of laundry, including the blankets from our bed, through the wash and into the dryer...the last load for the day is in the dryer right now. Got the bed sheets changed, and bed remade with clean blankets. I got the kitchen table cleared off (mostly) and swept the living room and our bedroom. I even got in a good nap with the baby...which was much needed I think. Got a shower, and the baby bathed, and only had a brief moment of cold water in the shower while Eli was fixing dinner.

I think I was feeling fidgety and restless because I want to get stuff done. I have an appointment to meet up with a lady about care for Martyn, on Tuesday morning. I'm excited about that, but I think perhaps a little apprehensive as well. Then to top it off, I'm just not feeling well physically today. My throat has been sore all day, and makes me wonder if my body has just been delaying the big sick.

I have two weeks until I go back to work. I'm feeling like I really need to make them count...both with Martyn, and with getting things done around the house. At least I don't have a crazy long day like Eli does, that would be super rough. Still though, it's going to be rough at first getting used to it.

I was thinking last night about how part of my hesitation in going back to work is about the actual work. I do enjoy my job, and I'm pretty good at it. But there are times when I just suck at it...Everyone has times like that, in every job I'm sure. I think I was thinking about those times and feeling very inadequate. Which is silly. There's no need to get worked up over 'potential' problems.

I guess I just need to get over it.