Day 85...First check up!

Apr 14

Martyn had his first pediatric check up today!

It went well. I like the pediatrician we saw, and I think we'll see her again (on purpose even!) in the future. She seemed pretty down to earth, and not terribly judgemental of my strong choice to not get his shots today, but delay them a bit. She gave us information on the vaccines, and didn't push for us to get them today.

I didn't get his second new born screen after he was born....I had decided one was enough and she was kind of surprised by that. So we did a second new born screen today, which normally is just a heal prick...but it was kind of a heal prick/slice. Poor baby....I thought for a minute he wasn't even going to cry. Eli was holding him when the nurse did it, and his reaction was totally delayed.

I don't know what the heck I'm going to do when he starts getting his shots, I'll probably cry right along with him! That's coming up soon too. Most people who choose to vaccinate their kids I think just go right along with the suggested vaccination schedule, that's fine if you want to do that but I don't.

The catch 22 about that, is that he's going to end up getting more pokes from the shots....but I think I'd rather deal with that, and a slightly sore leg, than a possible reaction to a bulk of shots, and not know what shot caused the reaction.

I suppose we'll just have to see how it goes when the time comes.

Earlier today, before we went to the pediatrician, Eli and I were talking about our parenting decisions, and about the vaccinations a bit. I was saying, and he agreed with me, that I don't want to be the kind of parent who makes decisions about their kids just because it's the norm, or easy thing to do...but at the same time I don't want to be the parent who doesn't do something, just because it's the norm. It's hard to find the balance between just going with the flow and completely rebelling against the flow.

I want to be the kind of parent who puts serious thought into how I raise my kids. It's a serious responsibility. I want to have a vested interest in my sons life....everything from his health and growth, to his mental and emotional development. I don't want to control everything that happens in his life, but it's important that I (and Eli) take very direct actions in the way we treat and raise our boy.

I feel good about that.

After the check up, we stopped back by our house quickly and got some milk and a few extra diapers and headed over to the nanny lady's house to drop Martyn. I had put two, two oz full bottles of milk, not expecting Martyn to need them both because I had just nursed him at the doctors office.

We then went to dinner, and a movie....date night number two. I felt better about this one, but felt bad because Martyn had just had his heal pricked. He wasn't terribly fussy, but still I just wanted to hold him more after that. But we had a good time on our date. After dinner, we still had nearly an hour until our movie started, and I was already getting uncomfortably full in the boobs. We decided to run home real quick so I could pump, because if we waited until we picked Martyn up, I would be ready to burst, ha!

I was super full, I pumped just over 5 oz between both sides....that's a lot! Boy I felt better after that though, whew!

We caught our movie and then stopped by the store so we could get cash to pay the nanny. When we picked up Martyn, he seemed happy enough. He totally ate both of the bottles worth that I brought....I was kind of surprised...guess he was just hungry. He had this little telephone rattle in his hand and was happy with that, which was super cute. She said he was just a little fussy, but good over all.

She told us about this big baby stuff sale in Hillsboro, and said I should check it out if I could. I think I will do that as part of my day tomorrow. The plan right now, is for me to stay out as much as I can tomorrow and let Eli take care of the boy for several hours alone, as practice for next week when he's going to have to take care of the boy all day.

Tonight, even though this was a good day and a good evening, I'm feeling kind of down. I'm sad about going back to work on Monday, and I'm sad about Martyn's heal prick....I'm feeling apprehensive about him getting his shots, like I said, I think I'll probably cry right along with him. I just want to hold him and snuggle him up, and I feel like I'm running out of time to do that...which I know is kind of silly. It's not like I'm going to be loosing my boy entirely, but I just feel like I'm going to miss him so much!

I've been trying to get my head back into the things of work, like remembering my vendors' names, ha! But when ever I do that, I just get distracted by my wonderful son and can't think of any work things...hehe. Oh well. I'll just rally when I have to.