Day 92...ouch, pride.

Apr 21

What a day. It's not so much that it was full of very tiring activities at work....but still really tiring none the less. I'm totally beat.

Eli and I had a better routine this morning...we're still getting the hang of what we need to do in the mornings, both when he's working and when he isn't. Things just went a lot smoother today than yesterday. It was hard to leave my boys though, looking all cozy in the recliner.

I was feeling pretty good about getting my "groove" back for work until around 10 or so. I got a slight reprimand about my snaffoo yesterday, and a little talking to about some other stuff. Which really, wasn't so bad at all, but it was a bit of a blow to the pride I have to admit.

A little while after that, maybe an hour or so, I was thinking about the whole thing and it occurred to me that it was a good thing. If really want to become a midwife, (I really really do) then I need to make it a habit in all aspects of my life to be very thorough and pay close attention to detail.

Eli brought Martyn by at lunch time, which was the highlight of my day. It was also nice to be able to nurse him on one side, instead of pumping....which I'm also getting into a routine for doing that at work. Oh how I wish I could just be home with my family though.

I think I may have gotten a little dehydrated yesterday, and it was showing today...my cheeks were really rosy all day, like I had been sun burned. I actually think it's just from being tired. I'm glad tomorrow is Friday, I really don't feel like dealing with anyone this weekend. I'm intending to just chill out with the boy and my husband all weekend.