Day 97....feeling fertile

Apr 26

This morning before I left, I glanced at my fertility lick-a-stick lens, from yesterday and it was a wee bit ferny...which typically indicates ovulation, or the start of ovulation....which means I could get pregnant. Uhg. It also means I could be having a period again here in a couple weeks...boo.

Oh well, it's gotta start some time, though it seems early to me still. Martyn is barely 13 weeks old. It startled me a little when I saw that fern pattern, because it was from yesterday...This may be TMI, but I'm gonna say it anyway...if I was starting to be fertile yesterday, then there is a possibility that I could be pregnant right now because Eli and I had sex the day before yesterday. There is a very small window of time in which a woman can get pregnant, when she is ovulating it's about a 12-24 hour window.

I know I had been all concerned about possibly being pregnant when Martyn was about 7 or 8 weeks old....but the likely hood now has a much higher possibility than it did then. What's that called, "Irish twins"....if I am pregnant right now, the baby very well could be born on Martyn's 1 year old birthday....they would be exactly a year apart.

I've been thinking about that all day. I've also been feeling dizzy all day today. I don't know what it is. It's not exactly nauseated, and not exactly a headache, but kind of on both of those. It's rather unpleasant whatever it is. I was feeling like this yesterday too, but today it was the whole day.

I really missed Martyn today. I was thinking about him a lot and just wanting to hold him. When I picked him up tonight, and he saw me, he just gave me the biggest smile....which totally made my afternoon. I didn't have a bad day at all, at work. I just haven't been feeling well today, and seeing Martyn's smile washed that away for a minute.

I really like my nanny lady. I would like to get to be friends with her, but I don't know if that is appropriate or not. I think we could be friends though, she's really cool. I enjoy chatting with her, albeit briefly, when I pick up Martyn. She's a very nice, lovely lady.

It's hard to be productive in the evenings when I get home, when all I want to do is cuddle the boy up, and nurse him. He's so snuggley and warm, and sweet. But I had to make dinner, and I decided to make my lunch too, and I had to get the diapers started washing so they can go in the dryer and be dry in the morning. I put Martyn in his little seat (after spending about a half hour nursing and cuddling him right when we got home) and worked on dinner. He did so well....but after about 20 min in the seat, he was done. Which was ok, because Eli got home and dinner was ready and I could get him out.

Now he's totally crashed out in my lap, while I'm typing this. Janelle said he only slept about 45 min today, poor baby. His schedule is all out of whack, well what little schedule he had to begin with. It's time for bed.