Day 124...oh happy day

May 23

It rained off and on for most of the day....I still found myself feeling....skippy, for most of the day. I just felt so good today. It was kind of weird, I felt good all day but I just missed my baby boy all day. I had his pictures up on the computer all day, so when I had a minute, I could switch over and look at his pictures....he's so stinking cute!

It feels good, to feel good. It was pretty slow for me at work today too, so I had time to just kind of day dream, and take it easy. I still got my work done, and I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be much more busy....but it was nice to just go easy today.

When I picked Martyn up from Janelle's, I made sure to let her know (again) that I don't have any hard feelings and I'm glad for her. I told her, she has to do what's best for her family and I totally understand. I said, "I'm sad about it, because I like you....but I'm happy for you at the same time." She said she felt bad, and I told her don't feel bad. It will all work out. I hope she felt better after that, I think she did.

Martyn was so cute this morning before I left. I hadn't gotten him up out of bed and was just letting him wake up slowly, while I got ready. I was in the living room, checking facebook after Eli left, and I hear Martyn in the bedroom just talking away, to himself. He was happy. I went in there, and he had stopped babbling, and was just laying there, kind of hugging the blanket. I said, "good morning my baby...." and he looked all around, until he found my eyes, and then just grinned really big....it was pretty sweet.

Tonight, I was changing his diaper, and putting his pj's on, and kissing his belly and neck and sort of play/talking to him. He was just giggling, and babbling away....every time I would kiss his belly, he would grab both sides of my head and hug really tight. It was cracking me up. When I laid him down, he wasn't quite ready, and didn't want to nurse like he normally does, to go to sleep. I was kind of full still. He got kind of fussy, clearly tired and wanting to go to sleep, but wanting to be soothed, but not hungry so the boob was no good. I got him up, wrapped him in his monkey blanket, and got the pacifier out. That worked like a charm, and he was out in a matter of minutes. I think it's the first time I haven't put him to sleep, nursing. Kind of weird, but cool.