Day 105...what a lovely feeling

May 4

The thought occurred to me a little while ago, that this coming weekend is Mother's day....it will be my first official Mother's day! That's kind of exciting...I sent Eli a text message to remind him, when I remembered.

It is a beautiful day today...makes me kind of sad to be at work. Speaking of work, I got my blood test results on my online account for my doctor's appointment yesterday. I'm perfectly healthy. I think I must just be having baby with drawls, and sleep deprivation...which means tonight the boy is going to bed at 8, and mama is going to bed no later than 9.

I like having Martyn in the bed with us, so I can nurse him. He wakes me up about every hour though, because he's learning how to roll over and keeps doing that in the night....then, he's all cuddled up to me, and wants to stretch his legs out, and kicks me or digs his toes into my belly button or side. Since I'm all groggy when that happens, I automatically assume he is wanting to nurse, which isn't necessarily true. But then I spend a few minutes trying to get the boob into his mouth, which wakes him up and wakes me up even more...it's a vicious cycle. I think we just need a king size bed, then we wouldn't have this problem, ha! (Actually, that's not a bad idea...)

It's only Wednesday, I'm still all thrown off by Eli having half the week off. I feel like today should be Friday...or yesterday should have been. I'm really looking forward to this weekend...hopefully it will be nice out too. Yesterday, I took Martyn across the street to meet my favorite neighbors for the first time. The lady Joan, wasn't home but her husband John was. Martyn was just all smiles and I finally got to hear him giggle, while John was talking to him. I think Martyn likes dogs, hats, glasses and mustaches....all those things seem to get smiles and laughs out of him. Either way, it totally made my afternoon. I'm looking forward to hearing more of those giggles, they're so cool!

I think he's nearly ready for the johnny jump up too. He can hold his head up very well and stand up on his own, with just me balancing him, for quite a while. He's even started pumping his legs a bit when he is standing up. I think after this weekend, or possibly on Sunday, I'm going to go and get him his little 4 month pictures....or I may just wait a little longer, we will see. He's not quite 4 months yet, but he's ready for some studio pictures.

We walked down to our neighbors tonight, to visit with them and introduce Martyn for the first time. They have this huge blueberry patch down in the lower part of their back yard and were working down there when we arrived. They also have all lining their driveway, all different colors of tulips, and Hyacinths, and daffodils growing all over. I love walking by there. The sun was really shining nicely this evening, not too hot but very warm and comfortable. Our neighbors John and Joan are super cool. We don't know them that well but I've always liked them ever since we moved here. They both are really friendly, and down to earth. I met John first, when we moved here and have always been struck by how friendly and warm his smile is. They are an older, hippie couple. They like gardening and run the blue berry farm in the summer time. As I suspected, they were very happy to visit with us. We let Sheba off the leash so she could run around with their two little pugs, Gus and Holly. Sheba promptly found a big mud hole to splish-splash about in.

We ended up staying down in the field and visiting with them for about an hour, it was really awesome. I handed Martyn over to Joan, and I could tell she really savored holding a baby....I'm not sure if they have grand kids yet or not...I don't think so though.

I really enjoyed our visit too. I think I would like to visit with them more often. Martyn fell asleep, he was all rosy-cheeked from the sunshine, and teething. Eli did well to keep him mostly shaded when he outside today.

I feel good about today. Every night when Martyn falls asleep in my lap, well before bed time, I can't just go put him to bed. I love cradling and rocking him....just cuddling with him. He's such a sweet sweet boy. My heart is feeling very full tonight. Not that it often isn't feeling full, but tonight especially, I like knowing that my son is loved by so many people....and Eli and I are as well.

It's a good feeling.