Day 41...the big sleeper

Mar 1

Wow, it's March already!

I think this year is going to fly by faster than last year. It's strange to think I wasn't even pregnant at this time last year. I was still working for World Pac for that matter....not for long, but still.

I decided to go and visit my work today, finally. Martyn fell asleep on the car ride there, and was out the entire time, except for about ten min when I changed his diaper. It was cool to see everyone and show off the baby. I stopped by the Beaverton shop too and that was fun. When we got home, he was totally still sleeping so I took advantage of that and ate some lunch. He was still sleeping when I finished that so I got him out of the car seat, and lay him down on my chest, and took a nap myself. I didn't mean to sleep the afternoon away, I must have needed it though. I slept in the recliner in the living room for 3 hours, and Martyn slept right along with me.

That means he slept almost all the way through from about 11:30am to 6pm.....He must have needed it too I guess. He was very alert when he woke up from his nap and happy and making fun baby noises, and smiling at me. I could watch him smile all day, man it just melts my heart! Not too long after Eli got home, Martyn started fussing. It seems like this happens often, in the evening...I've heard some call it "the witching hour", where babies pick up on the release of stress from a long day, in the evening when families are sort of reuniting from being apart all day. Weird...and kind of lame because Eli is often in good spirits when he comes home in the evening, even though it's been a long day for him. He is so much looking forward to spending time with Martyn and me, and Martyn starts fussing. Often for no good reason. That's hard to listen too, especially when he's been good for the most part, the whole day.

Oh well I guess...we'll figure it out.

I'm kind of bummed because I feel like I totally failed at trying to get him on a schedule today. I think I need to start at least getting up and going to bed at an established time. But man, I've slipped back into my natural time schedule, which is go to bed around midnight, and get up around 10. I obviously am not sleeping for ten hours straight, I have to wake up every 3 to 4 hours to feed the boy....but still, that's what been established for my son already and it's hard to change that.

After stopping by work today, it made me realize all the more how much I'd really rather stay home with Martyn. I've come to the conclusion that's not an option for now. It may become an option a little ways down the road, but for now I am planning to go back to work. I wish it were different though.

I actually don't mind when I really think about it, because I want this year to be the year that we start doing something about getting out of debt and moving on with our lives. I'm actually kind of excited about it. I have a great partner, and a wonderful baby, life is good!

Even so, I want our future to be better and getting out of debt will help that. Going back to work, at least for a while, is the way to help us get started down the road to being debt free....and I'm looking forward to that.