Day 226...Sometimes, it's lousy being right

Sept 2

How did it get to be September already? This year is just flying by. That's both good and bad I guess.....just the way it goes.

Well, as I suspected, the big one came today. I got written up. I was so angry afterward, that I sent Eli a text message to vent (not at him, but to him) which helped only a little. I just feel defeated at this job. I probably deserved corrective counsel, but certainly not a write up....with threat of "further corrective action, or termination". I really don't want to work for anyone any more. If I have to deal with all the office politics and irrelevant procedures.... I have to admit, I still have a major problem with authority...especially men it seems. I had dealt with this at one time, but I've neglected to up keep the mental state, and positive attitude that keeps this problem at bay.

The worst part is that stupid write up/consultation happened kind of early in the morning, so I was bummed about it the whole rest of the day. I suppose bummed is not exactly the right word....seriously pissed off is more accurate. But, it's better to be pissed off, than pissed on....although, I kind of felt like both had happened.

When I got home, Eli was so wonderful in comforting me. He said all the right things, and so did Martyn....they always make me feel better.

Enough of that. It's all the more encouragement to work towards my goal, for my family's sake and for mine.