Day 225...I know it's coming

Aug 31

Have you ever had that feeling that "the big one" is coming? "The big one", being some problem at work, or disaster at home or whatever...along those lines. For me, it's a correction or termination at work. I don't know which, and I don't know when....but I just have this sense of dread that it's coming soon. Not because I have done anything terribly wrong, but I'll just say there has been some problems since I've been back from maternity leave and in the last week, tensions have been really building.

I don't know what's going to happen, but I know it's not going to be good. It's so frustrating being there. Everyday, I just want to be somewhere else. Just about anywhere else. But I have to pay bills. So I have to be there.

I'm kind of bummed because having to get the car fixed, caused me to miss out on the Labor Douala workshop I need to take for one of my prerequisites. There will be another one, but I just really wanted to get things rolling. I hate feeling stuck.

I'm so glad, however, that my dear husband is supportive and encouraging, of my grandiose scheme to become a midwife, and even with helping me figure out what I need to do to make that happen.

It's good to have a clear goal...haven't had one in a long long time.