Day 147...back to the drawing board

Jun 15

It is the middle of June. What the heck? Boy, this is a busy month for us. We have something written down on the calender for every weekend. I'm kind of glad it's half way over, ha!

I've just been draggin' booty this week so far. Apparently, Martyn used up all of his good boy mellowness while he was with me this weekend, because Eli sent me a text message this morning around 11, saying Martyn had only stopped crying since I left this morning, to eat and take a nap, and he would only sleep on Eli's belly.

Poor baby, those "toofs" are hurting him pretty bad. I can feel them when I massage his gums, but they're not breaking through the skin yet. He also has a massive production of slobber, and the teething slobber rash all around his mouth to go with it.

When I got home tonight, I still had my sun glasses on when I walked in the door. Eli was sitting in the recliner, with Martyn on his lap facing the computer. I said "hi baby" to both of them, and Martyn took one look at me, and just burst into tears and started wailing. I took my sun glasses off, and he recognized me right away, and then stopped crying and smiled at me. Poor boy, he's feeling emotional. He pretty much just wanted to snuggle with me the whole evening, or nurse. I wish I could help him out a little more with the pain. I gave him a really good back rub with his shirt off, and that seemed to soothe him pretty well.

While I was doing that, it occurred to me part of the reason he's so big, is probably because we both (Eli and I) have touched him skin to skin, a lot in his short life. It's proven that touch is a major contributing factor in a child's physical development....isn't that amazing?

Martyn was very ready to go to bed at 8 o'clock, right on the nose. I put him to bed and came out in the living room to check my email. I had an email from my new babysitter, saying she can't watch Martyn any more....basically she got a better offer than what we gave her. I understand that, especially in this economy. It still sucks though.

So I'm back to the drawing board. She said she would watch him next week, and then my mom will be here the week after that, so I have a couple weeks to find someone but still....boo!

I keep thinking about staying home with him myself. I told Eli I would commit to staying at my job for at least a year, and reevaluate our whole situation then, but dang....maybe I'm supposed to stay home with the boy, and take in someone else's baby. I don't know. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes....like mom said about the first babysitter (who I totally loved!) "baby sitters are not forever." Well said mom.